Words to fall on

Noise is in my head, Is bombarding me, I want to shut down,  Give me a break! 

I reach out to the sun, For much needed nourishment,    It gives me life,  To see you,  I search for you,  To keep me living. 

I feel like I am off,  I want to stray away now,  It all feels too much. 

My heart is broken, To see you go your way,  You kept me happy, I am totally alone, Now I have to fight to live. 

Learning is vital,  To keep you educated,  So you know the facts. 

All I hear are the lies you keep telling me. Thinking I'm stupid. When I know the truth.  Stop trying to make me a fool. When it is you who is the fool. 

I try to reach out.  I want to join.  The only reponse Is rejection and no.  You have the  power over me.  Because years later  I ponder why. Why was I not allowed Cast away Like dirt on your shoe. Your actions linger on.  Year and years later  I am stood here wondering.  Did I miss the signals Why are people so cruel.  Words are painful I can still hear them. Round and round  My head all day long.  It has stuck by me Unlike some.  Still having that Grasp over me. 

You made me scared, For no reason.  You hated me,  I always questioned. I thought you were suppost  To protect me But all you did  Was hurt me. 

I'm sitting here, Reflecting to what once was  The hurt still lays here  With me each night.